I woke up today feeling disappointed. I thought things would be different right now in my life but I keep finding myself knee deep in impossible situations with no solution in sight.
I can feel the brokenness of my heart threatening to choke off my air supply. The only thing I know to do is run as fast as I can to the feet of Jesus. I hope my honesty doesn’t scare you too much. I suppose most public figures mostly tell you what you want to hear. But I’m not made like that. I’ll tell the whole truth.
When I decided to follow God and pursue the destiny He had for me, I didn’t know exactly what that meant. I didn’t understand that sometimes slammed doors and rejection would pave the way to my destiny.
Honestly, I don’t think any of us thought we would end up where we are at this very moment. But that doesn’t mean we should throw in the towel. It just means we are weary and need recharging.
I have learned the art of faithfulness during seasons like this; meaning I keep doing the things that I know are necessary to my survival. I don’t walk away from God. I keep dragging myself to church even when I don’t want to. I continue hanging out with other believers so I can draw strength from them. I read the scriptures looking for a rhema word from God. I become still in my soul and wait upon God to renew me.
And it never fails; He always does. He comes as surely as the dawn and as powerfully as the ocean. In my weakness He becomes my great strength and I feel alive again. Ready to tackle new projects and life from a renewed perspective and a fresh anointing.
Yet those who wait for the LORD Will gain new strength; They will mount up with wings like eagles, They will run and not get tired, They will walk and not become weary. Isaiah 40:31
As we trudge into the new year, how are you feeling? Are you burned out, weary, exhausted and ready to take a one way trip to a remote island? Would you be willing to take a few quiet days to “wait” upon the Lord?
Wait means to trust or hope. Can you trust Him long enough for Him to recharge you again? If you can afford to lay aside your grievances and just run into His arms, you could find rest for your soul.
That’s what Jesus said:
Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.
Matthew 11:28 NIV
We don’t need all of the answers to rest. Yes I know things are barely hanging by a thread in your life. The challenges you face are real and life seems uncertain. I’m right there with you. But, we don’t necessarily need answers to get through this season; we need the rest that comes only through the spirit of God.
God already has all of the answers and our next step, but He sometimes requires us to still ourselves and come sit at His feet. It’s a sign of surrender and trust when we do that.
Let’s start the new year off right. Instead of creating a list of resolutions that we won’t keep, let’s commit to waiting upon the lord. Let’s keep in step with spirit and take on the rhythm of heaven. Let’s wait upon the lord for our strength.
